This morning I thought... "I want to make the boys matching bow ties for Easter Sunday".
This is because I've been very busy this week and didn't have time to get them matching clothes, like I do every year. I take joy in matching them on Easter Sunday, just like most mama's do.

Well being a crafty gal, I pulled out my sewing machine and got to work. However as I went to plug in the sewing machine, something very important fell. Mr. Sonboul a couple days earlier had moved the hard drive (I save all my photos on...10 years worth) right next to the power strip, which means that both were on top of the computer tower. Crash went the hard drive and right away it made a nasty un-welcomed sound. Mr. Sonboul by my side, knew that sound meant bad things (being a computer programmer himself). As he spent hours trying to fix it, I spent hours mourning the loss of my photos.


Now you are thinking "Wait, but Heidi  Scrapbooks AND blogs". I know, right?! But sadly there was a time span that we didn't get on CD's and it was also the same time I hadn't started blogging yet. I scrapped some of the photos, but there were many I didn't. It was all of Calvin's birth pictures and pretty much his whole first year of life. There was this video I watched monthly (of Calvin on his birthday), because I loved it that much. GONE!

OH PEOPLE... Mr. Sonboul and I have said "We need to back up our pictures" for years, but we were always too busy to do so. This was a very hard lesson learned. I feel like our home was robbed and they took my most precious treasure. They can take the TV, all my scrapbook supplies and tools, even my camera, but for the love... not my hard drive with all those amazing family memories. We are smarter than this and yet, here we are. SO STUPID!

We even missed church. We both felt so sick to the stomach not knowing what to really say. Years of photos and memories are now gone. We decided to go to my mom's for Easter dinner, because the day just needed a "pick us up". Our family comforted us and are all trying to find any photos they might have. My mom even might have some from Calvin's delivery. She was in the room. Please pray that she does, but I'm pretty sure I remember her using my camera. My sweet brother in law said he has a guy that might be able to fix it, but it will cost an arm and leg and honestly, if Mr. Sonboul can't fix it... I don't believe that this other guy can.

So, today marks the re-beginning of our families photo journey. Luckily today was Easter and so I made sure to take pictures of the boys. Oh thank heavens I didn't wipe off the photos from my camera's memory card and put them on the hard drive like I do faithfully. So we still have photos from Bradley getting another trophy on Thursday (for his science project at district) and the boy's fun run on Friday at school. THANK HEAVENS!! Thank heavens I used Photo Bucket for my blog photos and they are in good sizes. Thank heavens that I scrapbook and blog. That we still have those photos that I shared here, but as for all those other 1000's of photos not blog or scrapped and those videos I cherished, gone.

I am trying to suck it up and look on the bright side, but it might take me a few days. I normally am tough and get right back up, but this one hurts more than anything I've ever had to deal with personally. It's up there with Bradley being pushed around by his teacher. Photos are my life and mine were packed with memories of the boys, my loving hubby, family here and family gone. Oh man... this hurts so bad, so much so that I'm sobbing while I write this. I guess I'm trying to get it all out tonight, so I can put on a happy face to celebrate spring break with the boys this week.

This couldn't be a crueler joke to a scrapper, but it's not a joke or a dream I can't wake up from. Every 10-15 minutes I remember something else on that hard drive that I didn't print or scrap and I start to cry all over again. I am crushed, but I will work on rebuilding our families history one photo at a time.