So what's the point?

Have you ever had a moment when you realize that we were an idiot?
While at moms and looking through old photos, I found these.

After I had Bradley I started running and lost a LOT of weight. Like 80lbs! When I was at this size, I just couldn't see that I was thin and healthy. I was so worried about hitting a goal and didn't notice, I looked really good. I was in a size 8/10 and for some reason thought I should be a 6. The only thing I can blame this on...is immaturity and stupidity!  Mr. Sonboul would say "You look really good Heidi" all the time, but I didn't believe him. I had people all around me telling me how good I looked and yet... I didn't pay attention. 

So what's the point? I guess I'm worried that I will fall into this trap again. I'm realizing that I need to focus on how I feel and my clothes getting loser. I still love the numbers and always will, because I'm SUPER competitive. However, I need to remember to keep reevaluating my game plan and taking the time to see what I've accomplished! By enjoying every step I take. 

P to the S:
I will be weighing in on Thursday and not Wed, that way I'm really good on Halloween/my birthday. I'm not a big cake eater, but I do love pie and candy;)
Come back tomorrow to see what Mr. Sonboul and I are going to be for Halloween. It's pretty funny!

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Leslie said...

Moral of the story is we always want more! I loved that forget me not talk last year about being happy now. We have all felt this way. Even my skinniest sister tries to gain weight because she's not happy with how small she is. We will never win if we want perfection. Healthy is the goal.

Gina said...

You look fabulous!!!!!!! We are both going to burn off this weight that makes us so irrational and holds us back from what we need to do in life!

Shemaine Smith said...

Love your honesty about weight loss Heidi. You're not alone in this and I just smile when I think about how you writing about this is inspiring so many other "fassy" ladies. Happy early Birthday wishes! Have an amazing day!

Pam Callaghan said...

Happy bday Miss Heidi, my bestie!!! Love ya, and hope your day is great!!!