This post is a workout confession and what has been going on with my weight loss.
I think by now you all know what I've been up to (this last 2 weeks).
If you haven't heard...read this post. It will get you caught up.
With all the craziness and my mom back at home (she is doing so much better), I've been playing catch up at work. Just about every single day over this last two weeks, have been long and tiring. I would drag myself out of bed in the morning and would pretend I had the energy to help the boys with homework after school.
I must say that I married the greatest man alive. Mr. Sonboul totally stepped up. He helped with homework, when I was at the hospital every night. He wash all the laundry and feed the boys. Plus work that week was really busy and stressful for him. So... Mr. Sonboul... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and thanks for not leaving my side. I had moments when I started to break down and you lifted me back up. You made it possible for me to help my mom. Again, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH for this!
Workouts were brutal and yes, my perfect record was broken. There were days I did workout and days I missed. I took it to heart and made sure I ate only the healthiest foods in reach. I watched everything I put into my mouth from the moment mom went to the hospital (9-30-12 to 10-5-12). Then Saturday (10-6-12) came along and I ran into a problem. It was around 3pm when I noticed that I had been emotionally eating away the day. As soon as I caught myself I stopped, but the deed had been done. Thank goodness I never touch my workout points and the extra 49 points for the week. Right away I refocused and got back on track. Sunday, I felt sick to my stomach and saw the proof that my body is changing for the good.
So where am I going with this post?
Well...yesterday I stepped on the scale, knowing that I missed 5 workouts. In the past, things like this would have broken me down and I would have given up on all my work towards healthy goals. However this time...something had changed within me. This last 2 weeks, I have felt a fight brewing inside of me and the desire to be a "Healthy Heidi" fueled my body. Yes... I missed 5 workout. Yes... I ate emotionally, but even with all that I stepped onto the scale. Knowing that I did everything I could and worked out when I found time, I felt confident. I waited in silence and stood still on the scale.
"Wow Heidi. you lost again. This time you lost 2.4 lbs".
Joy overwhelmed me and I wanted to cry. For the first time in a LONG time... I over came stress. I over came the emotional eating and pushed on. Today my stats are
In 8 weeks:
The best part is that I had no idea I was getting another charm. At the end of the meeting, our team leader announces who lost in the week. When she got to me she said this
"And Heidi, our weight loss rock star... lost AGAIN! She has lost a total of 27.2 lbs and is getting her 25 weight loss charm". Again... I totally wanted to cry!
Long story short...this was a really tough experience, but I never wanted to give up! I pulled out on top and I surprised myself. I didn't give up on "me" and I didn't loose my footing. People are starting to tell me "you look thinner" and it's rewarding. Knowing that I'm just 4 lbs from my 10% charm is awesome. Having this as motivation will push me in workout this week. Here's hoping I get it next Wednesday.